We lost a friend to suicide, we lost family to COVID, we watched a neighbors house burn down with all of their fur babies inside. If there is a heaven, its certain our animals are to be there, says Pam Brown. But I want all who commented to know that you are not alone in your agony and that, as I pray about my own grief, I will include all of you, and your pets, in my prayers. I held her she made barely any sounds. Im here because of the loss of our 8 year old family German shepherd. Depending on the manner of killing you can interpret . Please just get help. The bundle of love he was just breaks my heart in tiny pieces. You dont deserve to live and I hope you get your ass killed like you did to him your a punk. What if he ran in a car on the road close by? Not helpful. These drugs are used to treat pain, inflammation, and fever in people. We named her Emie. All these whys and what ifs are unbearable. That action was probably the worst thing Ive ever done in my life . Maybe you should attempt to be helpful / constructive before hateful and useless. As the day went on I realized I hadnt seen Zoe in a while. Identify imagined guiltabout theloss of your dog or cat. Seriously take in a breath, exhale a breath, and hold my cyber hand. I knew not to starve rabbits before surgery, but I had stupidly assumed that as long as she had plenty to eat on the day itself she would be fine. I got so tied up with my life and being selfish with my alone time. I usually gave him a lot of exploring time in our old house, even though he made messes. When I was younger my dog had gotten out without me knowing and followed me to a friends house. One by one our four adult children who grew up with her and loved her so much came home. I shouldnt have taken our during the heat. When I saw the collar and leash lying there on the ground and my dog nowhere to be seen, my heart dropped instantly. :(, Similar to my Moms story of how she named me after a kitten she stepped on. Seeming eager for playtime or maybe she was trying to get away from this crazy women who was mistreating her. When I did so, I closed the car door. My cat suffered unnecessarily for quite sometime. And don't get another dog. The vet called late afternoon. And we don't know what happened, but for some reason, it went wrong yesterday. I feel so sad and angry with myself. Why didnt I go with my gut? They gave me the medications and we went home. So, I went to the laundry room (which is right outside my bedroom . They breathed for her for 40 minutes until she started breathing for herself. I administered her 1 unit of Insulin and gave the first dose of Enalipril. Mid-evening the other vet called. The 3 cats in my home wasnt having him in thier safe space. We arrived home and she ate and drank. It turns out he had a tumor for about three years that was never discovered during checkups. She was also terrified of the ground and I hadnt taught her enough to survive alone. There are several factors that could have contributed to it, and there is no way to prove that one thing caused another unless an autopsy was performed1. i put him in the new cage i had bought for him, which i didnt use because i didnt feel right having him caged up all day, and i dragged the cage to the balcony and left him out there while i cleaned up. There had to be drafts coming from every where! I finally got a call back after 3 from the vet. I intended to take her to the vet soon regarding the legs and for thyroid re-check since her appetite was increasing. He was then in the new kennel for the week so he didnt have to be involved in the stress of moving day. One, named Pronto, broke his back and had to be put down. I'm actually crying. This didnt happen. Another dog will receive the same kind of love that it so desperately needs now. They may also feeling the loss of my other cat. I thought when she was 10 to take her for an check up for general health but didnt. Then she began to growl and puff out and fight the bed. The Animal Legal Defense Fund is a 501(c)(3) nonprofit organization. the kennel arranged the post mortem at the vets and it came back as a twisted stomach (bloat). Blah. But then she moved very slightly so we decided to take her to the emergency room. We've have had fish die of course. So we got the pig in july I got a cage and food and waterI taught my kid how to handle it so I didnt have to be bothered. I learned that they initiated a class action in US and Canada against the company coz many dogs died or has major secondary effects and FDA keeps adding secondary effects. I didnt see him so I called out for him, he called out for me and he his voice while calling made me cry and panic. I keep trying to find every excuse in the world for what I found but, I know she died because of my neglect. Her visit last November left me feeling good as long as her hyperthyroidism was under control. I try to apologize to him but I notice that his head was fixed at his left side , so i think I may have broke something. I believe I am the worst of all of these. She fell, still dont know how or why but it broke her neck. (I'm assuming a lot here, please correct me if I'm wrong). I dont hit my dogs , yet , since theyre not very trained, I yell at them when they are doing something stupid. I am not much a dog person at all, but cat lover instead. During the ordeal I made several phone calls. When Your Pet Dies: A Guide to Mourning, Remembering and Healing by Alan D. Wolfelt is a guide for pet owners who are struggling with grief when their pet dies. This might be the single worse thing Ive gone through in life. Grwm storytime : my mom killed my fish | *Accidentally | Mama I know that you're not going to let me get a dog | . You want him to trust you, you have to trust him. I also look to at the kennel, did they exercise him to soon after eating/ was it a stressful kennel ? If youre struggling with grief and guilty feelings because of the circumstances surrounding your dog or cats death, readLetting Go of an Animal You Love: 75 Ways to Survive Pet Loss. And it will always be Lollys Hill, and we will always love you. I stupidly placed her on the LIVING ROOM floor. will she able to survive? This is imagined guilt. So a couple of days ago, I put an e collar on her to prevent her from digging at it. When I walked in the door I found it odd that my other cat was sitting up at the edge of the couch nearest the door as though hed been waiting. I know its unhealthy and that blaming myself isnt going to move me forward in my grief but it doesnt feel fair for me to forgive myself and move on. Guys I slipped I swear!IMPORTANT LINKS:Twitch: https://www.twitch.tv/loganboisvertVOD Channel: https://bit.ly/3rVIAIdClip Channel: https://bit.ly/3CAVksQDi. I finally got her when people helped get the pitbull off she died within minutes. Press J to jump to the feed. Our other cat (the one whose died) is more of an outdoor cat and very self reliant with a strong hunter instinct. We moved away from the city over a yr ago but due to the pandemic my daughter and I havent made and connections. And even though I had seen her do it, it somehow was getting in her way. His adoption fee is $45. For instance, I now cringe when I recall how angry I was at my beloved cat, Zoey, for scratchingthe basementdoor (I didnt realize the door to her litter box was shut tight, and she couldnt get in). I talked to a pet-loss expert -- here's what she said. I love her so much and Im so glad I knew her, but at the same time if somebody else had adopted her as a baby they might not have been an idiot like me and she might be alive today. Maybe I should to help the vet? My husband help me catch her and the next day we took her to the vet. If the person lives in the same county as you, then you will sue in your county court. I just felt so bad that she was so bored at my place and alone when I had to work. She knew it meant a trip to the vet. I dont know what to do. Bella understood why Kion was so admired; Kion understood that deaths occur but there's a beauty to it. My mother in law had kept our son and 6 month old Pomeranian, Bella for us. A mutually supportive community where deeply emotional things you can't tell people you know can be told. Of all the offmychest stories these ones eat at me the most. i cant stop crying. Its a fucked up confession but what therapist treats their patient by telling them how awfully they are? My darling, my princess. You can never be too careful with our sweet pets. 90. r/Petloss. I interviewed veterinarians, grief counselors, and pet experts for the best ways to survive the death of a beloved dog or cat, and I included stories from real pet owners who coped with guilt and grief in sometimes surprising ways. I am not being harsh but wanted you to know, move forward. His traces are everywhere,in every corner. FREE CASE CONSULT 24/7 (214) 200-4878. . Trying to keep her safe, actually put her in harms way and I have to live with this along with the pain and grief I caused myself and my family. I dont know how to accept this or go on with myself knowing I was capable of doing something like this. I stopped handling her. I was so traumatized I was thinking it could be anything. My dog had lost a few ounces but his blood work showed that his kidney and pancreatic levels were . By rejecting non-essential cookies, Reddit may still use certain cookies to ensure the proper functionality of our platform. At 6 am she woke me up vomiting. He used to love it. All I know is he fell down. This is a wonderful relationship in general. Whether it's long-standing baggage, happy thoughts, or recent trauma, posting it here may provide some relief. New comments cannot be posted and votes cannot be cast. She was refusing food yesterday and it was hard giving her medication properly. I hope I'm not intruding too much and you are somewhat O.K. I feel so guilty cause my cat died like I was cleaning my kitchen table and I tipped my table sideways cause theres bugs on it to get them off not realizing way later cat was there it fell again but on top part flat squished my cat didnt hear it make a sound than after lifting my table I saw it laying there I picked it up panicked took it to the room thought it wasnt to bad than it died a minute after feel bad cause it felt like my fault I just worry for myself and kids after this dont want nothing to happen to them feel like it will come back to me like god will punish me if anything I dont want my kids to suffer but let it be me they dont deserve to suffer but i feel like it should be me hurts me scares me I did a prayer smudged my place still feel uneasy bout the situation I know when I was 9 yrs old same sorta thing happened accidentally my cat got squished under my bed by jumping on it I cried so hard that time its traumatizing dont want any more pets now at all feel bad please lord forgive me hurts bad like seems every thing always goes bad for me my son recently got murdered too why me I just want all this suffering dying to end please. a dead man walking. He could have been saved. I love animals and couldnt ever bring myself to lay a hand on my dog for example, but this guy clearly has some problems and needs those solved as priority #1. After one hour she lost her breath she died im so dumb i should have taken her to the vet earlier i should have taken an appointment to the vet the day i found out she lost her appetite so that the next day i can bring her to the vet . The worst part is I didnt know it was still that serious, I didnt think she was in danger of dying anymore. Dealing with guilt when you caused your pets deathisnt just about grieving; its about cherishing the best parts of your life with your dog or cat. I am here because I am struggling deeply with the loss of my kitty, Yuki. You loved that he distracted you from the obvious deficits you have for being a decent human. The grief is overwhelming. TikTok video from Manar (@antisocial_hijabi88): "Traumatization #fyp #foryou #arab #arabic #storytime #grwm #makeup #hijab #arabmom #arabtok #arabsbelike #pet #petfish #arabicgrwm". Some time later I found out If only I could have went downstairs I could have gotten hold of him. I checked her pulse and there was nothing. Your dog and what dogs embody would want you to get through this. But Im not that that stupid I know I should have or could have acted quicker. She looked like she had rabies. I was so excited. Allow yourself to feel the guilt of feeling like you caused your dog's death. Noone would take them. On my way to the bedroom I felt her go limp. We took her to the vet who said her lymph node was enlarged and look liked it had spread . I rushed to the vet and he said that he had cardiac arrest already. On Monday Single Dot refused food but quite normal but evening he was not okay. I put him in a box and took him home. I saw a single rabbit bolt down a hole when she saw me. We cried from the depths of ourselves. so im writing this post because i accidentally killed my dog out of anger. They put her in an incubator. A Vetoryl overdose can cause a dog to become lethargic, vomit, and seizure. Florio waited for me to come down and pick him up from where he was sleeping by mom and died in my arms an hour later. Thank you for listening! My cuddle bug. We aim to keep this a safe space. The most common one causes bleeding disorders that can be fatal. Alan the dachshund January 2013: Alan, Tatler magazine's "office dog," saw a man approaching the Vogue House, London, revolving doors, and walked after the man. I cant believe I was so stupid not to see it. (Yuma az degree is 110.) I love reading these comments and having everyone ignore a major thing you brought up; you have anger issues. I wish I had saved you. I got the water hose and cleaned it up and found some in his house. i cant forgive myself. But they were outdoor bunnies, with constant access to grass. The big issue is the failure to stop to render aid.". Maybe I can save another kitty out there somewhere in Yukis name. I hate myself, and Im saying all this here because otherwise it might fall out of my mouth in front of my wife and I CANNOT do that because shes making her peace with it in her own way and the food thing hasnt come to mind for her. I cant live in this house anymore, I threw out everything. But I didnt have enough courage to do it becuase I was dealing with severe hurt and anxiety on the same day. I didnt think my friends dog would viciously kill my beloved baby girl Raiderette I knew they would not be best friends but this dog mauled my baby and I couldnt stop it. But, if you hit a dog, you have to stop. Now, Im looking back on everything and it has dawned on me that, for some reason or another, she probably was dehydrated because she couldnt drink after I put the e collar on her. i find it hard to talk to people and bond with anyone. Im afraid he hates me for not trying harder cause there was so many things I could and should have done. Why not give the family another chance to show another dog the same kind of love Kion received? Surely hed still be alive if I hadnt. Stiffening up. I make myself confortable watching them and I notice something kinda annoying. It was my hamster. He looked particularly smart as earl We'll listen, and if you want, we'll talk. Shed get so excited when shes hear my voice, and shes lick my finger, I didnt think hamsters could care about a human so much. By the time Pronto died, old Babs, the third cat, didnt do much more than sleep so Duffy had no cat to rely on. If you killed a dog with a knife by accident, unpleasant events are waiting for the dreamer and his family. I believed her because she had two rabbits growing up. And I completely scared my kid ! he was the cutest. You should not get another animal as long as you aren't positive you have control of yourself. I couldnt catch him. What I did not know was that Bella was behind me trying to jump into the car at that very instant. I dont know how to cope with the immense guilt I have. Yesterday I went to go feed/water him and he was just sitting there, vomit and black diarrhea in his pen. Get help before you hurt somebody. Then I remembered she was with me in the laundry room and to my horror I found her in the washing machine. Ive been crying every single day since. She suffered because of me. How he cried for help when I couldnt do anything. And I was so dumb to think I could even leave it open as an access point because its such a narrow gap to squeeze through. Degeneration and weakness of muscles. Her head got slammed in the door, and she dropped to the ground without a sound. She died because she had to have surgery to remove some of her colon and she got an infection gone the following morning. The officer tried pulling the seat.. i never got him a cage but i had a little setup for him when i would be away at work, which was all day pretty much. Bella looked up, wagged her tail, and chased the other dogs through the field of flowers merrily into the golden sun. I decided to bury him under a tree in the back yard. However, at 4.15 Single Dot started to breath heavily After vomiting and I called my husband to go to the vet. Tuesday morning also he didnt come to our room and I found that he was sitting near the neighborhood garden. Ive read these post and I can tell you all genuinely LOVED your pets. I went after her as she collapsed to the ground. Press J to jump to the feed. I was crying, exhausted, my adrenaline teetering. No sane person would do this. I said goodbye to her outside the animal hospital. We didnt have a personal vehicle , my phone also off. So given that I believed the arrest was the result of these fluids and the stress surrounding the day, I continued aggressive cpr. I feel both at the same time. We ( me, my mum, dad, and brother ) had a beloved springer spaniel named Cooper. I love the book because it offers both heartwarming stories and practical guidance on grieving the loss of a pet. Maybe you should attempt to be helpful / constructive before hateful and useless. I miss you so much. The shame and guilt are overwhelming. This year we found a small lump and I said we need to keep an eye on that . Lameness. Might she have been less stressed if I hadnt screwed up? It doesn't seem like "oh I get mad soemtimes"; but more like "I have a literally problem with my brain, or whatever, and it makes me unable to control my anger.". I scooped her up and we sped to the vet, but it was too late. A few years ago we had adopted a kitten named Ryuu. I had a basket full of clean clothes that had been sitting crumpled up for a couple days. Within a week, our older cat was taking naps and snuggling with our new baby. We aim to keep this a safe space. He was a cockatiel that had been with me for over 21 years. Im here because last week my little 6 lb baby Zoey went out in the yard to do her potty before bed like always my husband is usually here and he goes out with both dogs but this time it was me i turned all the lights on and watched both dogs go out and everything seemed fine 10-15 minutes later i go looking for her i looked everywhere house rest of the yard and then i seen her in the pool drowned i immediately jump in to get her and laid her down and tried to give her cpr it didnt work i was in a deep shock and Im still so devastated i cant stop blaming myself on top of missing her so much weve had her for 14 years after the kids were gone and she was our baby so loyal and sweet she was a big part of our lives for so long.i dont know how i will ever get over the blame. In some cases, dog trainers may find that there is too big of a liability and won't work with your dog as a result. If your actions led to your pets death, you have to keep reminding yourself that you did not deliberately harm your dog or cat. I did a similar thing when I was learning to drive. Yesterday morning I heard him struggling and struggling to scratch through his cage and I just tried to ignore him even though I still felt really bad. Were going to an English county that only we know, to a hill only we know, and well say goodbye one last time and let you go. I time to time visited him and gave some water using syringe. I'm so, so sorry for your loss. I ordered a 2010 special order kennel and bought a igloo home for him, enclosed part of it to cover his home as well. Just know that her last moments were pure happiness to see her family, and she will be waiting to see you again when the time comes. Identify real guilt about your pets death. Its just so sad and I hate to think how long she was in there stuck and struggling and suffering. I turned to take a bite of my soup and I her a thud. I didnt understand the rationale. It happens that instead of just tapping him in the ass and letting him go the rest of the way I accidentally use too much force and make him do a 180 around his leg and he falls on his back and head.